Days, seconds, weeks, months.... it's all the same

June 1st. 
17.381 weeks. 2,890 hours && 9 mins from the time I'm writing this, 10,404,609 seconds. 

That's four months .. 


June 2nd. 
17 weeks. 2 days. 2,912 hours 16 minutes, 10,484,230 seconds. 


I miss you. I love you. your birthday is so close. 
Why couldn't you stay? 
Today's hard sister. 
Today's so so hard. 

June 3rd.
122 days, 17 weeks 3 days. 2,937 hours 34 minutes, 10575358 seconds. 

This dream I had, on the first. I can't explain it. But you were there. && You didn't say anything. You just had this grin. What I said, is what confuses me. 

A text to Austin && Rachel: "Like... It truly doesn't make sense. You were there. && You kept saying, she's here, be happy. 
&& I stared at her && she wasn't saying anything. She just, grinned. 
I looked at you && said "how can I be happy. Just because she's here, doesn't mean her soul is. Her souls gone" 

&& I woke up

That was it. 
Were you visiting? 
I fucking miss you. 

I love you. 
If it was you visiting, thank you. 
Thank you. Thank you. 

I love you so much sister. I wish you understood that. 

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