29 mins until Christmas. (now tis Christmas)
11:31. That's what time I'm starting this. I just want my mind to shut the hell up. I'm so damn sad. I tried to watch it's a wonderful life, because, we all know, it was padres favorite Christmas movie ever. We both grew up on it. We'd watch it on repeat.. I cried earlier be auss on Amazon, it glitched then wouldn't play. I just want this to feel right. && It doesn't. Nothing about this feels right. I gave kat her gift, && she gave me mine. We both got each other "wine tumblers/coffee cups" it was absolutely beautiful. It reminded me, I have to keep fighting this shit. I have to. Sister, when I say my mind got so damn dark today, I just wanted to lay on the couch && cry. && Sleep. But I didn't. I got the fuck up. && I can't lie, it was one of the hardest things I've done in a while. Taking care of tiny, one of the hardest things. Sitting here right now, watching frozen... One of ...