Things I want to say..

I've learned this week in life sister that the movies you watch are what life truly is like. && I don't mean that in the romantic, scary movie kinda way, no. I mean the way that certain movies describe certain groups of people, && how they never seem to change. Which, don't get me wrong it's not a bad thing because, to each their own in reality; it just honestly makes me wish I could go back to that version of me.  Parties aren't the same, after an accidental alcohol induced ulcer, I've kinda taken a step back BUT it's not so much the alcohol I'm after, it's the connection with people again. After you, I lost connections completely, && after padre, well I guess we all know how that's going. I don't know how to be anything but a mom. && Honestly, that's so horrible saying because sister idk who the hell I am. I know that with your help ((as always)), I see how horrible of a person I was in the pa...

Today, today's the day you knew you were done. You couldn't do it anymore. && That's okay. I'm here to keep fighting your fight. I'm here to keep living. To keep promises you left behind. I am STILL your rock sister. Just like you're my rock, my secret keeper, my other half. My human diary. My human soul mate. My little sister.  It brings me to such a serious question....  What would you do, if you knew today was your last day? *Insert Nickelback here*  What did you do sister, knowing it was your last?  You messaged everyone you loved. Just to make sure they knew, you loved them. You said what you thought you had left to say. At least what you could think of at that time. You changed all of your passwords, to make sure my nosy ass wouldn't find out where you were getting your stuff from. But plot twist sister, I still found out. Did you forget who I was lol. You did your drugs to numb the pain. But sister, did it numb the pain?  This is just somethin...