Dear padre, dear Taylor;
This father's day was hard without you padre. I tried to ignore it && honestly, I had blocked out that it was father's day so bad, that I realized I hadn't been telling any of the uncles or my grandpa it. I miss you, so so much more than words can put it. Honestly I need you and I hate to admit it but it's so much more than I thought I would had. There's so many things I just want to sit down and ask you why, alas I can not. && I know that's why mother's drinking the way she is. She's hurting, && that's the only way she knows fo numb it. && Then there is I, who's had so many life realizations, along with the culture shock, && sensory overload on top of me just being the awkward fuck that I am.... It's just been a lot, but I've also seen a lot that I've just felt so disconnected from. Life happens and it happens fast.. some adjust better than others while others never do && I'm caugh...