Here we go...
Dear sister, I have a problem, && I can't accept it.. idk how to take it, idk how to handle it, idk where to even begin getting help for the shit. It literally started because of the weight of you, && padre and this is what he wanted to avoid from mother, alas, here I am, going thru full blown alcoholic moments. I miss you, so damn much sister. So much more than you ever expected anyone to miss you. "be happy for me, in the most heartfelt way possible " Fuck you for that sister. No one can be happy for you! We fucking miss you TOO DAMN MUCH!!!!!!! && I always feel I'm being selfish for it, but maybe I'm not? Who the hell knows anymore sister. I just know you were so much more needed than you ever gave yourself credit for. You're such a beautiful soul. You.... Were such a beautiful soul. Since beginning school, I've been learning so much, like how to take a deep breath, and take a step back, acknowledge s...