Things I want to say..

I've learned this week in life sister that the movies you watch are what life truly is like. && I don't mean that in the romantic, scary movie kinda way, no. I mean the way that certain movies describe certain groups of people, && how they never seem to change. Which, don't get me wrong it's not a bad thing because, to each their own in reality; it just honestly makes me wish I could go back to that version of me.  Parties aren't the same, after an accidental alcohol induced ulcer, I've kinda taken a step back BUT it's not so much the alcohol I'm after, it's the connection with people again. After you, I lost connections completely, && after padre, well I guess we all know how that's going. I don't know how to be anything but a mom. && Honestly, that's so horrible saying because sister idk who the hell I am. I know that with your help ((as always)), I see how horrible of a person I was in the pa...

Somewhere on the beach, is a picture of you && padre with y'all's story. A short version of it anyway, with a link to this blog. I really hope someone finds it, reads it, && hears your story.  I hope it inspires someone to stay. Because man oh man, knowing what I know now, I just wanna hug you tighter than I think I ever had. I'm sorry I failed you as a sister, I truly am.  This trip was needed, I just wish you woulda came with. I know you were in so many ways but to physically have you here would be amazing. It'd be just like our trip to Arkansas, maybe even better.  I fucked up && didn't apply enough sunscreen though lol like you did that one time. The shit hurts man 😂 && Im about 90% sure I rebroke my foot, or just a different part of it.  I almost don't wanna go back, but you're there; padres there. Sadly, it's home. But what if this is the start of a new adventure? I know you're wouldn't want us t...